Coming Home.

You know I've been thinking...things, where we are in life, can be tough...to speak the obvious. As life comes to us as it does, I go back and forth in how well I'm doing. We all do. There are times where I do well, but then there are definite hard times where things seem so dark as I look up at the mountains that seem to overwhelmingly surround. This week I decided to start over with the "basics" of faith. Not try to theologize, interpret, go deep...you know the drill...but rather to just read and really listen as God tells the story, taking note of the details, but particularly really looking at the whole of the story. It's really refreshing, especially considering what I've been working through and talking with God about. God gave me a peace in my heart that I cannot explain with all that was going on, and just brought me home. I feel like a child just sitting next to her dad as he reads a story, an adventure story, a love story, a everything you ever wanted story all in one. Why is it so hard to come back to that spot? Perhaps we just are so used to climbing and looking at the work of doing so, and not just letting ourselves enjoy the trip. We work so hard in pressing forward, in theologizing, in ministering, and perhaps even loving doing so, but I think that that can sometimes be a hinderance to knowing how to return to just resting, listening, and enjoying the adventure without trying to make our lives be this picture of what we expect and want to be, even when it's honoring to God. Resting is honoring to God too...and I really needed to come home.
So, that's where things are here spiritually for me, and the rest of my life is ok too. Sarah (my sister) and Doug's wedding was beautiful.... Though, I have to say, I'm super stoked it's over! There was so much involved with getting things ready! Coming home from Europe was only the middle of the marathon! And the wedding was only one part of that marathon! But it's over, and things are relaxing a bit. Life, though still going it's normal pace, has given me a chance to slow down a bit this week...to just be.