Changes, Learning, and Trust.

There is a huge possibility on the horizon of where God may take me. I am not at a place where I feel at liberty to speak of what exactly that looks like, but I am excited to see how God is leading! Stay tuned! There may be more coming soon! One word...Africa.
In about a month, our lease will be up and we'll be vacating our current residence and moving our separate directions. It has just worked out that I'll be really on my own at that point, meaning no roommates, at least not that I know of as of yet, but it's not a bad thing. The problem, if you want to call it that, is that I really don't know where I'm going to be living after the 15th of March...yet. You know what I've learned though, that on the mount of the Lord it will be provided. All that we need is found in Jesus, and He is amply supplied to meet all our needs. Now mind you, I don't always rest on that truth, but tend to worry. This time it's different. Maybe God has been gracious by deepening the roots of trust in me. That certainly is a process of learning to not try to take control myself or freaking out when there is no control. What does worrying get me anyway? So, it's good, and I'm excited to see what door opens up.
On another note, it turns out I'm worse at loving people than I thought. The realization is likened to that of stepping on a nail. It hurts deeply and makes me cry to know that I bum people out, especially when I thought that I was loving them. Even if I think I am doing the right thing and my motives are good, it may be that one of three things can happen. One, it is received well and is a blessing. Two, it is is received but it didn't make much of a difference. Or three, it is received in the complete opposite way that was intended and is offensive. Now I know that we are not in control of how the other party perceives things, or how they react. However, we are responsible for relying on the Spirit to lead us and to love through us. God calls us to love one another. It is a command pure and yet not always so simple. I hate it when a negative is the result of my efforts. One thing I am sure of though, is that God is able to make things right. For that I am grateful. The one thing I do desire is to know the Lord so intimately that I take on more and more of the character of Christ Jesus and reflect him in everything.